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Happy New Year’s!

In a few short hours another year will have gone by and a new will begin.  And at this time many are making promises that they make every year of what they want to do in the next year.  Wither it be lose weight, workout more or even keep the house clean more.  And while many will not keep their promises in the next year some will.

For me I will not be will not be listing such promises or making them because well every year and every day I try to better myself and I will admit this year I haven’t made some great choices in how I handle myself, things I have said or done.  Now I could sit here and say will I had post pardon depression and then depression after I nearly killed my children in a roll over but fact is every day someone is dealing with those things and I am grateful that I have worked through them.

But then again I was very lucky in the fact I have a great husband who supported me and fish oil other wise I would have had to find a doctor and see help.  I am glad that there was a natural thing to take to help me out.  With all that said I am glad that there is a new year around the corner.  I look forward to all the many many many great things that will come.  From my children reaching mile stones to my husband healing, he has a neck injury from war that needs healing.

I also look forward in the next year to starting my schooling.  I have decided on natural medicine to study.  As to were this can lead for a career I am not really sure to be honest but I know that it will help me become a better mother and that I love.

So I didn’t get my blessing jar made yet I want to do that on the first day of the new year I think that’s more important it will be a great way to start the year of and it will be positive and I know my oldest will love it.  I did do my revitalizing my spirit in getting ready for the new year and I will do it again in the morning after I wake and just start not only the say and the year off with a good foot.

I am hoping that I can find time tomorrow to meditate and carve that time into everyday as well.  I really need to do that more often I am hoping to contact and speak with my spirit guide and I also hope to start looking into Astral Travel soon as well but I need to start with one thing at a time.

I have so much that I want to get done this year it’s crazy and yet I am not promising to do them as I know they will be done because it’s just the path we are all on.  Mr Spirit will be looking for a church soon I personally think he knows which one he will love but he wants to talk with the pastor some more.  He is afraid of them not accepting our marriage and me with my faith.  And he says he doesn’t need a church to talk and have a relationship with god.  Which I agree with him but I know it’s important to him.  He won’t tell me but I know he misses it.  I want him to have that again.  And if that means I get my butt up early and head off to church early on sunday morning and load the baby up and sit next to him well then that’s what I will do.

But he would do it for me in a heart beat as well, I love that we can support each other so well.

Ok on to something different and because I don’t want to make many posts and I know that many are not reading this anyways….

Mr Spirit found out more about his neck injury and well I know he will be fine I don’t know how but I know he will be.  I still worry, I worry if he needs surgery I worry because he is dealing with this and dealing with PTSD and that’s just a lot.  Mostly I worry because he doesn’t feel right sharing with me, he doesn’t want me to know the things he has seen and done in war and he is afraid I am not going to be able to handle it.  And while I know I can I respect that he doesn’t want to share it and I am just grateful he is talking to someone about it.

Also the doc he saw earlier this week gave him meds for is neck but they also fix the shaking in his hands.  My dear sweet husband’s hands have aways shook the whole time he’s been alive and this whole time no one has told him he didn’t have to live this way.  He had a fear of holding our newborns because of the shaking and because he was afraid of dropping them because of it.  But he has been given that all back and while we don’t have a new-born and I don’t know if we will have another child I do know that it will take time for him to get used to it.

So with that I live the past in the past and I look forward to a great and wonderful new year full of hopes and dreams.  Full of healing and just everything that is good.  I look forward to school and I look forward to my watch my children this coming year.

Happy New Year’s Everyone!

Blessings

Spirit

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Blended faith home….how does it work?

I have been asked this many times and honestly it’s hard to answer because it just does.  But a few important things I think I should share that work for us Mr. Spirit a Christian and myself and Pagan.

1) Respect is a must
2) Understanding that you are not always going to agree one what is right
3) Support each other in their chosen paths

So let me start with respect.

Things would never work if I didn’t respect that Mr. Spirit believe differently than I.  And they wouldn’t work if he didn’t respect my beliefs.  Mr. Spirit over the years has had many people ask and or tell him to make me change what I believe.  He understand where they are coming from but at the same time he doesn’t get it.  Why would he want to force me to believe something that I myself couldn’t no longer force myself to believe in.

He knew that it wouldn’t be true faith, it would be going through the motions and he didn’t want that for me he respected me and that path that I am on that it’s right for me.  Do I think he wishes that I would convert? Honestly I don’t know I know that we rub off on one another and of faiths change with every passing day.

As for me I could never ask or try and force Mr. Spirit to believe as me.  I truly believe god speaks to us all in the way that is right for us to hear him and I truly believe Mr. Spirit is on the right path.  I do know that my faith makes it hard for him to follow a dream of his to be either an asst. chaplain/pastor or a Chaplain/Pastor.  Many churches at least that he has been to so far don’t like the blended faith home we have they will take him as a member but that’s about it.  I hate this and I am willing to be the good pastors wife and sit in church every Sunday and listen to him and do what is needed of me.  I am willing not to be out of the closet for this for him as it is I am mainly out online and that’s it.  But he refuses to ask that of me.

And with that you see how we respect each other and we try to support each other on our chosen paths.  When I say I am willing to be quite and hid my faith so he can meet his goals he doesn’t like that.

Now on to understanding.

Mr. Spirit and I have had many of debates on what we believe some he will look at me and say that he just doesn’t agree.  And you know what I am fine with that just like he will be answering questions for our oldest and who Jesus was and when I am asked I say I believe he was a man that lived but the son of god nope.  But I also try and be very respectful of the fact he believe that he is when I say it and I say mommy believes but many believe like daddy.  And Mr Spirit is normally quick to say that our oldest needs find his own path and see what he believes. (but that’s another post in it’s own my oldest and his journey)

Agree to disagree goes along way with this it also helps when we have fights every now and then to remember we don’t always have to agree and things will be ok.

Now on to supporting one another.

This we find easy I don’t know how to explain this we are partners in parenting and life and even our spiritual lives even though we don’t agree on paths.  We just support one another when they need it.  I support Mr. Spirit in finding a church and helping find where they are and websites for him to look up on and numbers to call.  Why because he works crazy hours.  I support him in making sure he has what he needs for his spiritual growth and that the days that are special to him are celebrated and as special as the days that are important to me.
It’s important to him to pray before meals so we do it.  And so many other things.  He supports me in making sure that I know that while with in my home I am safe and don’t have to had and if I need time to do a ritual it’s fine he will keep the kids busy.  If I need him to help me he does.  He is planning on praying with me over the Blessing Jar tomorrow because he knows it’s important to me.

I don’t see issues with blending faith it just takes communication (opps forgot that one in the list), respect, understanding and support just like everything else in a marriage.  So in the end I would like to say it’s easy there is no trick to having a blended faith home many people do it and I am not special because we do it.  It works for us is it for everyone no but that is how marriage and life is.

Any questions?

Blessings,
Spirit

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I am Anti Anti aging or in other words pro aging

I am tired of all the anti aging things out on the market and what is thrown out to women that getting and looking older is wrong and you shouldn’t. I used to feel this way I had a hard time turn 25 because I was a quarter of a century old. But now I look and think about it and realize I was not old but I was wiser and I am going to welcome every wrinkle and gray hair there is out there that comes my way.

Aging isn’t something that’s bad or something we should try to stop but it is just something that is. With every passing year we have learned something new we have loved and lost and we have grown while it be psychically or spiritually or emotionally. Think about it in the last year what are some things you have at to live through and grow with as a person?

But while I am cool with my ageing and my growing older and I know I will welcome my time to be a crone I do grieve for my children’s childhood going by so quickly. I know it’s how it is supposed to be and I understand that but in the world of today it seems we ask to much of them. So this is going to be my new goal to become cool or fine with the growing up of my children and enjoy their different stages of their life and try to guide them to be a great person.

In the mean time I will boycott anti ageing creams and gels and all that stuff. I will enjoy everyday I am given and find something to learn from it.

So rejoice with me as I grow older and with the new gray hair I found, for it brings wisdom and reminds me all that I have learned.

Blessings,
Spirit

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It was a great day today!

Well I got some of the many things done that I wanted to get done.  I still need to meditate for the night.  It’s hard to find time to do that with three children.  Miss A is in a growth spurt and is nursing all the time and it would be great if she didn’t try to stand on her head while she did it.  Then my boys are just boys loud and always moving but good boys.  It will be late before I get to meditate for the night but I will get it done maybe I will post about it after I do it.

Today I learned how to make a black mirror for scrying  I might have to try this out.

Also Mr Spirit and I talked about a blessing for the kids so I am going to start writing one up.  It will be one the first things I put in my BoS.  I like that what I am going to place in it is going to have meaning and be written up by me.  The Blessing will be simple and a blend from both our faiths about guiding the children and helping them find their true path neither of us are going to force the children to follow our faiths.

I have been asked in the past how Mr Spirit and I can blend our faiths so well that many that don’t know what our faiths are wouldn’t know that we are a blended faith home.  Well for one we both believe in being good people and giving back and pretty much the golden rule to put it simply.  The holidays well right now it’s just the Mr and the kids and myself so it’s easy to blend them.  My holidays and specials are normally just for me and not a big to do Mr. Spirit will make sure to do something with the kids when I need time for something and I do the same for him when he needs it.

For Christmas I got him a bible everyone thinks this is weird but why wouldn’t I honor his faith it’s a part of him and he honors mine all the time as well.  I would go and sit in church with him every Sunday if he asked, but he doesn’t church isn’t my thing but I think I will start going as he starts looking for his Spiritual home.  It sucks with the military he just hasn’t found that church he feels right with and the one from before he deployed well seems different now.

Today I also started my research into Imbolc or Candlemas  and it’s again something that I haven’t really looked into and I am sure I will be doing something I already have the meal planed for the most part something simple that my children love.   Mr. R is such a picky eater.

Speaking of dinner

Tonight we have pancakes with eggs cooked inside of them it was good we cooked the eggs to over easy and everyone loved it Mr. R ate the most he has in a long time!

Blessings,

Spirit

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One step down the path

It’s late and it has been a great day with the kids and Mr. Spirit.  And I was able to get in much-needed research.  I have read and read that I just need to step back and think about what I read before I know what is true for me on my path.

I have read about the wonders of child-birth and the stages of the female life.  And think this is defiantly something I will look in to some more.  I knew being a woman was special and powerful and now I am learning how.  I loved being pregnant and would love to have just one more child but if I don’t I will be happy with that.

I know that I will raise my daughter to rejoice with her changing body and not be shamed because she got her period.  I do think that her and I will be using cloth pads it just seems to be the right fit for me and I hope for her.

Tomorrow I hope to research about the spiritual growth in boys/men as well because I have two sons and I can’t leave them standing at the curb.

In an earlier post I talked about a blessing jar that I was going to do for New Years so I thought I would share it with you fine people (if there are any out there that is)

Make a blessing jar:

Into a vase, jar, or bottle (which symbolizes protection), put:

-a small bag of soil (for abundance)
-a coin (for prosperity)
-a fabric bag of salt (for purification)
-a crystal (for vision)
-an arrowhead (for guidance)
-a tiny fabric bag of herbs (for grounding)
-left over candle (for focus)
-a cross (for balance)
-a feather (for freedom)
-a clipping of hair from each family member (for unity)
-an old key (for opportunity)
-a small mirror (for truth)
-a piece of red paper (for memory)
-a small fabric bag of raw rice (for fertility)
-a ring (for love)
-a rune stone (for communication)
-a shell (for choices)
-a small fabric bag of loose tea (for awareness)
-a small folded fan (for healing)
-a rubber band (for flexibility)
-a letter that contains this list and what you hope to accomplish this year, sealed inside an envelope (for happiness)

You need not have everything on this list, select what is important to you.

Seal the jar with the lid, or cover the bottle/vase with a piece of fabric and a rubber band or string. Place your blessing jar either just inside or outside your front door until next New Year’s Eve.

Now I would and a prayer before I sent it out and make sure my intent was on what I was placing in the jar.

I think this is going to be a simple yet powerful thing for me to do.  It’s going to be one of the first magical things I do that isn’t about food. LOL Mr. Spirit doesn’t get it but he is supportive of it so that makes me happy.

I am also hoping to honor the goddess on the full moon that night and just jump in with both feet. I am not sure what I am going to do with the full moon and it’s a blue moon yet but maybe something as simple as a blessing and maybe starting my BoS.  And charging some crystals I don’t know.

The cleansing I was going to do was simple, sadly I live in a bible belt state and in a trailer park so I am careful what I do outside and this is something I can do outside without much problem.  And frankly I like it because it’s simple I think that’s how things should be is simple.

So here is the blessing I am going to do.

Pretty much I am going to go outside and fill a bowl with cool water from the hose and then say

Substance wasted, substance spoiled, now redeemed. Seeing thyself in substance undefiled, forming thyself a new from this frail substance gathered and revived

I am going to do this in the morning and then again in the evening.  I think this will renew my spirit for the new year nicely I might change the words a bit. But I like them I may need to add at least to them, if I do I will share with you guys.

I also plan on sharing what goes in my blessing jar as well.  Mr. Spirit thinks I should leave out the rice well we will see on that one. HeHe

This trip that I am on is almost like starting over because I let it lapse for so long and I hate that I really do.  I let life and depression get in the way and I hope to not let that happen again.  I hope that as I get my Spiritual self back together that it will lead to all the parts of me getting back together and on the right path.  I seem to be able to handle mom mode pretty good but even there I am not being all that I can be and I hate that.

So tomorrow I am making a deal to do one thing more than I normally to declutter (sp) one area of the house and find on object to use in ritual, and I am to do one more thing with each of my children for fun.  And for the spiritual part of me I need to meditate at least 20 minutes tomorrow and focus on that and clearing and centering myself.  This I promise myself and I hope to get done tomorrow.  I know I can do it.  Maybe I will even make a pie tomorrow!

Until tomorrow.

Blessings,
Spirit

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Quick update 12.27.09

Well things are pretty much back to normal the kids love their toys and a low tech Christmas worked out great! Autumn loves her toys as well. We have some new ideas for what to do next year and we know we only have another year or so with Mr A and Santa and I hope to enjoy them.

Mr R was great though in how happy he was it was great listening to him go Santa came over and over. It was great.

Other than that it’s been nice, I need more sleep but Mr. Spirit is helping a ton. He has cooked and cleaned and wiped butts for me. Man I am lucky.

I have spent time researching all kinds of things. But I have my New Years plans made mostly.

We are going to order Pizza and have root beer floats and movies and games. These are the family plans my spiritual plans are I am going to make a blessing jar for the home for the up coming yearn and do a spiritual cleansing for the new year as well.

Now for the full moon which happens to be a blue moon I don’t know what I am going to yet maybe something simple that is in my everyday life.

My spiritual path is leading me in new places the last few days I have read and learned how wonderful it is to have a period and I should be proud and not ashamed of it. I plan to research this more and pass it on to my daughter. I have also found some blessings I want to do I will post about them once I do them and share how they went.

Also in the last few days i have been talking with other people about astral travel and orbs. I have learned I want to learn more about both and have learned that what I believe when it comes to orbs has brought me closer to a christian friend.

Well that’s about it for now I am sure I will be back later tonight while I don’t have children needing me.

Blessings,
Spirit

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Merry Christmas!

Just a quick post to say

Merry Christmas

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